Toby Flood: What a shocker… England were second-best in every area
22:16 GMT, 17 November 2012
I can 't remember the last time I felt this frustrated after a Test match.
A win was there for the taking. Instead we lost, and we deserved to lose, because they were better than us in many areas: from a skills point of view; from decision-making and, most of all, with how they managed the game.
You can talk about positives but you have to be honest in rugby and the truth is this is a big blow. We came into this game full of confidence after drawing with South Africa last June, and then putting 50 points on Fiji last week.
Going over: Nick Cummins goes past Toby Flood to score
It hadn't been the perfect performance but it laid a good foundation. Instead we came second because we just weren't good enough on the day.
There are a number of factors why Australia won.
We had issues at the breakdown and we had issues holding on to the ball and we had issues with some of our skills but that's because we were always trying to force the issue, rather than be patient, and that led to mistakes.
I guess people will highlight some of the penalties spurned.
Our scrum-halves are both instinctive players like all good scrum-halves should be, and although I would have backed myself to have kicked those three points at the end of the first half, Danny Care's decision to take a quick tap led to Manu Tuilagi's try.
It didn't quite work out the same though when Ben Youngs also tapped quickly and went with 11 minutes remaining.
Best men won: Wallaby Nick Cummins celebrates his try with Kurtley Beale
Perhaps that was a time when the context of the game has to be taken into account and, although you never want to curb the instincts of an attacking No. 9, we need to work on our collective composure.
Australia came off a really bad performance and result last week against France and on Saturday they threw caution to the wind and were aggressive in their attack.
Add to that an Australian pack who won more penalties than any other Southern Hemisphere side in the recent Four Nations Championship, and we had our hands full.
We should know how to deal with a situation like this but we are still making far too many mistakes under pressure and being caught out by sides who are taking their chances much better than us.
If you drop even by five percent at this level you almost always have to pay for it, and that's what happened against Australia.
So what now We face South Africa in six days' time and it is fair to say that we will have a hard week trying to eradicate quite a few failings that reared their head against Australia.
Then the All Blacks come to Twickenham the week after. It's clearly a tough couple of Test matches but if we can compose ourselves and start taking the chances that we continue to create then, of course, we can win them.
I'll accept yesterday is not a great platform. We have to start learning right now because I don't want to feel like this again for a long time.
Good read helps give me a kick…
Some of the London-based boys were able to get away for the night on Tuesday to go back and see their families.
But for those of us living further afield, we'll spend the majority of our time at the England squad's base at Pennyhill Park.
Of course, it can get a little claustrophobic at times but it's a fantastic facility and there are far worse places to be stuck.
When we're not training, I've been catching up on my reading with Tom Wolfe's novel, I Am Charlotte Simmons.
Happy with kicking: England's Toby Flood boots a penalty
I was pretty happy with how my goal-kicking went against Fiji.
Goal-kicking is a pretty hard thing to quantify and sometimes it's a very individual art. When I'm with England I have help from kicking coach Jon Callard and I work with Paul Burke back at Leicester.
But quite often I just like to take myself away and work on my own in order to refine the processes and ensure I'm happy with the way I'm striking the ball.
My aim is 2k for hair-raising feat
The moustache I've been growing for the Movember campaign to raise awareness over men's health issues is coming along pretty well.
I'm copping a lot of abuse for it from the rest of the boys, although so far I've managed to escape landing a new nickname.
I'm not taking anything for granted though. I've raised about 800 now and it would be great to make it 2,000 by the end of the month.
At least that would make up for all the dodgy looks I'm getting whenever I walk along the street.